now playing... "the mikado"
i am an enigma. i am mysterious. i possess mystique.
who would've thunk?
just got back from whitney's house where the final's party/end crit continues. hard to believe i was in the first group that arrived at quarter after nine. spend so much time with randomness... but it was good. i feel good. and i haven't felt good in a while so it's even better. but whitney- who apparently has been endowed with the ability "to *get* people" hasn't "gotten" me all semester. i am an enigma. her exact words, i swear.
only in my life. though never in my life... i mean, i shouldn't be surprised, weird stuff, weird people happen to me all the time. it's just another freakish occurrance that's all part and parcel of art school life. but i would never have thought that those adjectives applied to *me.* me = mysterious? sounds so romantic, so film noir, so exciting. there is no mystery in my life. i am simply who i am, with simple tastes. i eat the same food all the time cuz i never like trying new things and i'm quite happy with routine. and yet, this new "enigma" status... i don't know.
have i been wrong about myself all this time? no. she's just misinterpreting shy/quietness. greg knows i'm quiet and that i think even when i don't say things. he knows that's logic and weak socializing skills. whitney calls it elusive and mysterious. even if greg is right (which he is), i think i kinda like whitney's word for it. i am not a shy intellectual- i am an enigma.
she's right though. she mentioned that i need to work on my typography (no surprise there- obviously) but also that the talking and socializing with my teachers/peers gives them insight into where i'm coming from for better and more helpful feedback. which i suppose is right. but then i'd have to give up my cool new status. plus i'd have to talk in class and definitely don't like that. plus the whole "let's socialize and all be friends..." whatever. i am an artist; i'm supposed to be anti-social. or at least it's more socially acceptable as an excuse for anti-social behavior than say... a med student, wannabe teacher or similar.
still, one more class down. two more to go and a paper then it's home free.
i am an enigma. hmmm... i need to think about this some more.
i am an enigma. i am mysterious. i possess mystique.
who would've thunk?
just got back from whitney's house where the final's party/end crit continues. hard to believe i was in the first group that arrived at quarter after nine. spend so much time with randomness... but it was good. i feel good. and i haven't felt good in a while so it's even better. but whitney- who apparently has been endowed with the ability "to *get* people" hasn't "gotten" me all semester. i am an enigma. her exact words, i swear.
only in my life. though never in my life... i mean, i shouldn't be surprised, weird stuff, weird people happen to me all the time. it's just another freakish occurrance that's all part and parcel of art school life. but i would never have thought that those adjectives applied to *me.* me = mysterious? sounds so romantic, so film noir, so exciting. there is no mystery in my life. i am simply who i am, with simple tastes. i eat the same food all the time cuz i never like trying new things and i'm quite happy with routine. and yet, this new "enigma" status... i don't know.
have i been wrong about myself all this time? no. she's just misinterpreting shy/quietness. greg knows i'm quiet and that i think even when i don't say things. he knows that's logic and weak socializing skills. whitney calls it elusive and mysterious. even if greg is right (which he is), i think i kinda like whitney's word for it. i am not a shy intellectual- i am an enigma.
she's right though. she mentioned that i need to work on my typography (no surprise there- obviously) but also that the talking and socializing with my teachers/peers gives them insight into where i'm coming from for better and more helpful feedback. which i suppose is right. but then i'd have to give up my cool new status. plus i'd have to talk in class and definitely don't like that. plus the whole "let's socialize and all be friends..." whatever. i am an artist; i'm supposed to be anti-social. or at least it's more socially acceptable as an excuse for anti-social behavior than say... a med student, wannabe teacher or similar.
still, one more class down. two more to go and a paper then it's home free.
i am an enigma. hmmm... i need to think about this some more.
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